Hope

Sometimes I have this question: if I am not getting what I believe is a very good gift from God, am I doing something wrong and being punished?

I usually don’t voice it exactly like that because I would see how ridiculous that would be. But I know I think that sometimes. Basically, I’m not getting what I want and what I think I deserve, and I don’t like the feeling of being denied it. And then I try to be a little bit manipulative with God by saying, “Well, what is it that I’m not doing right, what am I doing wrong, that makes You withhold this thing I want?”

Oh, Emily. God is good. He is not withholding. Walk with Him. But also know that what He has given you now is exactly what He wants you to have. He is not withholding good things from you in punishment.

No, His heart is very good toward you. Perhaps it is a time of testing, or even training through discipline, but He is good.

Have faith dear soul. There is much more than you can see. There is a much bigger picture. You cannot understand it all, but His ways, His thoughts, are far above yours. They see. They know. He knows.

And when disappointment enters your heart, replace it with hope, immediately. Don’t wait a moment. Hope again. Yes, dare to hope again. Because good will always come. You are in the line to receive good because you are His.

Disappointment dwelled on only leads to discouragement and eventually despair. No, exercise that muscle of hope and patience. It is weak, but let it become strong.

I won’t say all good things come to those who wait, but I will say that all good is in my path because He is my Sustainer.

And no, I cannot see, but I believe. I believe that He is good. And in that dark moment that my heart entertains doubt, I will alter my mind and I will revive my heart for its love and say: but no, He is my God, and I will trust Him yet.